Some of it is the meds and the fact that I think they need adjusting again (but when the dr. who is doing mat leave for my family dr. asks me why I'm there, I tell her and she looks at me and the 3 kids I have in tow and says "How do you have time to be depressed?" I really have no desire to go back until my family dr is back!)
God's grace in the moment. In the middle of the frustration and apathy, He showed up and showed me Himself.
I love that God knows what will touch my heart, what I need, when I need Him to reach down and touch the places of ice within my heart.